I am a recovering control freak.
Others were on the receiving end, but no one felt it more than me. A burdening pressure to keep it all together. A suffocating need to protect myself by doing it all.
Did others know I was falling a part on the inside?
In the deepest, darkest places there isn't enough strength to hold the facade together anymore. And as the walls around my heart began to crumble, I found myself exposed.
Bare.
But this is where we start. When the heart is open and you find yourself searching — for answers, for strength, for Someone.
Desperate and bare.
And this is where you meet people. People just like you, with the same questions, feeling weak, and searching for someone. Someone who knows where they've been or where they're going. Someone who reminds them they are not alone in their struggle.
Fear may tease me into rebuilding walls. Control may try to appease my weariness when the harsh world encroaches.
But every time I vulnerably share my heart and my life struggles with others I see Him. Sweeping up the ashes and making them into something beautiful.
Linking today with Lisa-Jo:
7 comments:
I can soooo relate! Sometimes the constant need to be strong, makes us weaker than we care to admit. You are not alone.
Thanks for your comments Christy.
Oh yes the control freak.
Know all about that.
I also know all about "beauty from ashes"
Great honest post.
Cheers,
Leah
Thank you, Live Love Educate, for reminding me I'm not alone. Strong can make us weak — yes!
Leah, thanks for stopping over! It's always nice to meet a fellow "control freak"!
Oh my gosh! I loved this. The call towards transpareny that build relationships and the reminder that God takes the ashes of our brokenness and makes something beuaitful was what I needed today. I'm so glad I popped over from FMF
~Osheta
There is so much healing that comes when we are willing to lay it bare before Him. Our stories bring so much encouragement and hope to others. Blessings!
Boy, can I relate to the control issues! I still struggle with protecting myself that way, but I'm getting better. I love your take on Bare!
Beautiful! So glad you are not giving in to the temptation to rebuild walls... (at least not letting them get very tall, right?) Powerful stuff - when we are willing to be vulnerable! Love this!
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