I'm a pretty glass half-full kind of person...except when it comes to money (what's that about?).There is a certain amount of faith in the way we approach money. Our needs have always been provided for, food on the table, and everything we need for our kids. We don't really live without (when compared to those who actually do). We are more then blessed. So why do I doubt?
Money is like a hanging carrot. There is always more to be made. Stuff, stuff, stuff abounds around us and we are bombarded with images of life being easier, better, nicer, and more fun if we just had a little bit more.
I have a love/hate relationship with money. Some days I would rather just live in denial. Not think about (or worry about) money. To find satisfaction in what we have without thinking about what we COULD have.
There are days when the "moons align" and we have enough to pay the bills and then some. But then there are weeks when it all sort of unravels before your eyes and you wonder how you are going to make it work. This is not an unfamiliar song. How easily we are lured back into dissatisfaction. How one thing compounds another and you become overwhelmed by it all, especially when the "needs" start piling up.
Ultimately, I think money hits me where I'm weak. Money has the power to make me feel insecure. And insecurity is an issue for me. I feel insecure when I'm not in control. Oh, my...back to the control issues again! I'm not even convinced that having "enough" would actually make me feel secure because there is always a chance that enough won't be enough. And this is how the cycle of worry perpetuates.
God, help me to remember that tomorrow will take care of tomorrow and that You will provide. God, please help me to trust in a future I cannot see, knowing that whatever happens is "all for God's glory".
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"Anyone who loves money never has enough. Anyone who loves wealth is never satisfied with what he gets.
I've seen something very evil on earth. It's when wealth is stored up and then brings harm to its owner.
It's also when wealth is lost because of an unwise business deal. Then there won't be anything left for the owner's son.
A man is born naked.
He comes into the world with nothing.
And he goes out of it with nothing.
He doesn't get anything from his work that he can take with him.
I realized that it's good and proper for a man to eat and drink. It's good for him to be satisfied with his hard work on this earth. That's what he should do during the few days of life God has given him. That's what God made him for.
Sometimes God gives a man wealth and possessions. He makes it possible for him to enjoy them. He helps him accept the life he has given him. He helps him to be happy in his work. All of those things are gifts from God. A man like that doesn't have to think about how his life is going. That's because God fills his heart with joy."
ECCLESIASTES 5:10, 13-15,18-20
